The Attack on the Biology of Humanity

This video on InfoWars.com i found extremely interesting and it answered a lot of these questions i had. Mainly about transgenders. I've watched a few videos on YouTube about transgenders and it confused me that 3 year old boys wanted to be girls.

But there are chemicals everywhere that attack your natural hormones and alters them. This video mainly talks about men and how feminine the men are becoming because of the mutation of food and how it lowers testosterone levels and increases estrogen levels. Just check out the young folks walking around nowadays. Justin Biebers everywhere.

One thing you got to know about me is that i research a lot of things about The One World Order, the Illuminati, and conspiracies.
Call be a conspiracy theorist or a Truther but all i do is analyze the facts and think critically. I choose to be informed rather than stick my head in the sand and pretend that the Governments truly care about people.

InfoWars is an excellent source to find out more about what's happening in the world.

The reason why i'm so passionate about this even though most of it is happening in America is because America is so powerful and has so much influence on the rest of the world and so what happens to America will eventually impact the rest of the world.

Our health is extremely important ... that's a given but stay away from all GMO, BPA and eat healthy. Stay away from fast food and oily crap that's full of artificial colourants/flavourants and a massive amount of excess sugar. You're body needs good healthy fuel not crap that just drags it down.

I don't eat fast food (last time i had it was about a year ago) and i try my best to stay away from all artificial food. Once you start eating clean and natural and you try and eat crap again you feel the difference. The reason why i don't eat most sugary sweets is because when i do i feel lethargic and i can't concentrate, i just want to sleep. Does your body really need that?
 No!

Honour the body God has given you.

Let Go

This song i really needed to hear!

The lyrics are so pertinent to me and i think God is gently nudging me toward the right direction even though it hurts and is so hard .... and yet .... it's so simple.

Let me give you a bit of a background on my life:

Growing up i was relatively happy. When you're young and naive you don't really pay attention to the real world. My days were filled with school and extra activities such as dancing, acting, and music. I was never the girl who had loads of friends. When i was at my lessons i would talk to the girls there but they would never come over to my house. I only had 2 'true' (i use that term lightly now) friends back then.

But when i turned 13 my life changed. Things got more tense at home. My parents were fighting more and my friends grew more distant. When i was 15 my parents got a divorce but during those 2 years of the arguing and the tears I grew more reserved. I was trying to handle this new found faith in God, learning about the Torah and trying to deal with my own father making fun of me at the same time.
I thought something was wrong with me and so i grew this immense self-hatred toward myself. I felt like i was a mistake and shouldn't be here since this time my friends didn't seem to care and so i felt alone.

My mom got remarried when i was 15. She stayed in Alaska for 3 months with Mark, trying to sort things out over there but during those 3 months i was in charge of the house. My dad was also traveling overseas.  He would deposit money into my bank account, just enough to buy food for the weeks. But i had to cook and clean and make sure the house was in order.
For a 15 year old dealing with a lot of emotions that was a lot of work.
But at the same time God was showing me so much in His Word.
In my family on my dad's side when you're 18 you get the Lee signet ring. My brother's very proud of his ring but to me it's just a ring although i was very proud to get it at only 16. I wore my ring the next day in the mall. I went to the bathrooms and as i was walking back to my grandmother i noticed i didn't have my ring on. I panicked and ran all the way back to the bathrooms which was on the other side of the mall. While i was running the verse in Psalm 45 popped into my head. "Forget your father's house". As i got to the stall i saw that my ring was gone.
Yeah ... a God-Thing!

When my mom came back i was such an emotional wreck i didn't know how to cope.
We moved around a lot after that. Staying a few months here, 1 night there etc. During that time i was battling with an addiction that maybe one day in the future i'll have the courage to speak about.

I told my dad goodbye and didn't speak to him for a year.

The house we're staying in now we've been in for over a year and God has really used this time to heal me from my past. I'm in contact with my dad again although we rarely speak. In a year i've seen him twice and yes ... he blames me for that.

But that Psalm 45 verse is still rolling around in my head. I get frustrated that my own biological dad doesn't make more of an effort but then i think .... how can i be angry? God warned me this would happen. And you know what's so amazing about Him? He's made it easy for me to do just that. I haven't had to tell my family members on my dad's side i must "forget" them. I'm pretty sure they've forgotten me.  I can see it two ways.

 1: My family really doesn't care about me and i was a fool to ever think that.
2: God is protecting me from any more emotional pain and so He's causing them to drift away in order to teach me and make me draw closer to Him.

The only thing that really hurts is the letting go part. I'm a sensitive person and grow attached a little to easily to some people. If your words tell me you love me and care about me and for a while it looks like your actions line up ... well, then, i'm a goner. But break that trust i now have in you and you probably won't get it back too easily. I will act all tough but inside i'm still soft and still attached to you and struggling to let go. I now see that in my past i cared more for the opposite person than they did for me. So i gave them my heart and they threw it back.

So this past year i've been praying very specifically. I believe in specific prayer! This year has been a major healing year for me. A preparation year for the life God has in store for me. I asked God to make my 18th year the year where *my* life begins. Not the life that's hitched to some one else's wagon. But that i'll be free for God to use me.

So i believe my life is finally starting. I wrote in one of  my previous posts of me hopefully going to Israel next year. At first i thought it was just me but now i truly believe God wants me to go somewhere. Some place where He can speak to me in a powerful way and where i can take the first step.

On a Shabbat my family and i listen to a teacher; Rico Cortez. He's amazing and actually a descendant of Aaron. A few months ago he spoke of the Rites of Passage. Everyone in the Bible went through it.

I can see how my life has lined up with this and how this past year God has taken me away from everything i've ever known. A place where there have been loads of trials (and there still are major trials). We're at this point where we're trusting God for everything and i mean EVERYTHING! 

13-16 years old: Rites of Separation.

16 -17 years old: Rites of Transition.

And i'm just praying that i will finally be 'incorporated' and ready to do His work in this world now.

I have 2 destinations in my mind right now of where God might want me to travel to. I've been praying about it and i can't help but feel this immense peace when i think of the one destination and a little doubt when i think of the other. There's a little bit of fear for the one and a little bit of 'security' for the other. 

One teaching by Jim Staley, he said that you should always go down the path you're most afraid of. God hasn't given us a spirit of fear and we must be fearless when living for His name. God rarely asks us to walk down the path that offers 'security' and 'comfort'. Rather i find He takes you to the end of your comfort zone ... the place, where naturally, you're most afraid, so that we can learn to not give into fear.

I'm still praying about this and will wait till the end of October - mid November to really make a decision and to walk out in faith.

The theme of my blog is all about being strong and being a warrior for God. My whole life i've been the softy who never speaks and the one who lets people ride all over but God is training my fingers for war and hardening me to difficulties so that i can truly be His warrior. 

Both trips are a bit scary since i'm traveling alone but there's this one i'm most afraid of more ... an end-of-comfort-zone fear and i think ...

 God's asking me to take His hand and walk with Him on those waves and let yesterday burn in the fire ...

and to finally LET GO!

Healthy Living

Ok. I'll admit it. I think living a healthy lifestyle is hard. For some people it seems to come naturally. My mom, for example, loves her healthy food and you never see her with a KFC burger. When my parents were married my dad was a huge junkie. I learned a few bad habits there but my mom was still very strict. No sweets or junk food during the week. I was very active when i was younger, dancing ballet several times during the week, climbing trees, swimming, pretending i was mermaid one day and Lara Croft the next.

But when my parents got divorced i stopped all my extra activities, music, ballet, art. I was sad so i turned to food. Comfort food. Some people lose their appetites when they're sad, some turn to food. I'm part of the latter group. Carbs just have a way of 'filling the gap' when i'm sad. But that's a false feeling of comfort 'cause a few minutes later you feel sad again ....and fat, lol.

So ever since i was 14 i've battled with my weight. Picking up weight, attempting starvation but it was all in vain.

I like the concept of living a healthy lifestyle but actually doing it is a whole different story. South Africa isn't exactly the place where i can go for a run by myself so it's a lot harder for me to be active.

Our body is the Temple of God and we can't fill it with junk and artificial crap. I just found an awesome YouTube Channel called Blimey Cow and in a few of his videos he mentions how you CAN'T pray over unhealthy food. It's true.

 It's just wrong.

So here are a few tips that i've learned. I love studying the benefits of food and also the consequences of eating badly.

• So the first tip is obvious: Stay away from all fast foods, crisps, white bread and greasy, oily foods.

From some of my research i see a lot of diets say to cancel out carbs and sugar. Nah! Sugar consumed in small amounts is NOT bad.

• Try and eat lots of fruit, veggies, and protein. 

I know a lot of women stay away from protein for some reason. I, on the other hand, have absolutely no idea why and how. I love meat, chicken, fish etc. Plus it's extremely good for you. It is packed with iron and the B vitamins. A few months ago God started showing my mom and i how eating Halaal food is against the Torah 'cause it's sacrificed to another god. In SA a lot of the meat is Halaal so we bought our meat at a kosher butchery. Kosher meat is extremely expensive so we had to have mince once a week and chicken on a Shabbat. After a while i started feeling extremely exhausted and i started getting the symptoms of what a diabetic has. Excessive thirst, lethargy, occasionally blurry vision and i started getting pins and needles very quickly. I went to the doctor, got my sugar level tested and praise God i didn't have diabetes. But then what was wrong with me? It turns out i was lacking in iron and B vitamins. So i went to the pharmacist and the lady there injected me with B's. I got such an energy rush and i felt so good. But then when i went to the mall i was looking at some of the meat there and saw a lot wasn't Halaal. That was awesome and now we eat more red meat.

Which is good 'cause i haven't needed any injection. I'm so awake and buzzed.

• Exercise.

This is also a given. But it's hard when you can't pay a fortune for a gym subscription or you don't have any sport activities such as tennis or dancing. So i've formed a workout plan. Either you can buy a workout program online such as Tae Bo or Zumba. But i can't afford that right now so i just switch on music and dance away. It sounds crazy but i walk out my room 40 minutes later matching my red hair so it must do something. Just put on some upbeat music and jive. I also do things like crunches, russian twists, jumping jacks, push ups etc. It works. Seriously.

• Eat chocolate.

This is just something i can not give up. I used to be addicted to Doritos but now? Hm-mm-mmmmmm .... dark chocolate has stolen my heart. Dark chocolate is actually good for you. I read in a magazine article once that people who eat 50g of dark chocolate a day weigh 2-5kg less than the people who avoid it. 

So my advice is to EAT CHOCOLATE! 

*Dark chocolate. Not milk or white chocolate.

• The miracle of popcorn.

Google it. Popcorn, surprisingly, is packed with vitamins. Plus it strengthens your teeth. I have IBS so i have to snack in the afternoon else my colon hurts and my tummy stings like crazy when i get round to eating dinner. So i think popcorn is a good healthy choice for snacking. It's also very light so you don't have a full feeling for hours afterwards.

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So these are a few tips i have for anyone out there who wants to live a healthier lifestyle. If you've grown up with fast food and unhealthy habits it will be hard. But i've found that if you give yourself 2 weeks you'll find yourself disliking the taste of bad food. 

It's true that having a burger from McDonalds is cheaper than making a healthy meal but if you're creative it's not that bad.